Today is CD10. No sign of ovulation. Maybe I am ovulating later in my cycle (which would be a good thing) or maybe I'm not ovulating at all. I am using the OPK, but I am running out of test strips, so I am debating about whether I should buy more or just forgo the OPK altogether, since it won't change anything one way or the other...if I am not ovulating, there is nothing I can do about it.
I had another talk with Steve about donor embryos. I found a website that will allow you to do up to three FET cycles with donor embryos for $9800 + medications. That sounds like a lot, but the catch is that this particular program has a 100% money back guarantee if you don't get past 12 weeks in your pregnancy some time within the three cycles. Or we could just do the one cycle right here in Seattle for $3000. Obviously my body is capable of carrying a pregnancy; it's just my "old eggs" that are suspect.
Since Steve is still not on board with that idea, the only thing I have left is to keep trying until my birthday (that's as long as he said he wanted to keep trying) and praying. So I try to keep positive. I try to keep remembering that I have a golden egg in there somewhere. Although I may not be able to control whether or not I actually get that golden egg, I can keep doing my best to stay healthy and hope. It may be delusional. I am willing to admit that. But at this point, it's all I have left.
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