So today I got the results of my HcG test from yesterday. I am exactly 5 weeks since LMP, and my HcG level is 7290. Although that seems to be in a "normal" range, the doctor wants me to take another blood test tomorrow. That means I get to be nervous again until I hear the results on Friday! I told her "OK, but this is the LAST ONE".
Here's the thing. The HcG thing is not an exact science. The numbers are all over the map for what is called "normal". The only thing I know for sure is that they like to see the numbers doubling every 48 hours...However, a low HcG doesn't necessarily mean anything is wrong.
The reason I don't want to have any more HcG tests is because there is NOTHING that can be done to prevent a miscarriage, if it's going to happen. In the meantime, I am a nervous wreck, struggling to decide if everything is ok or not. That can't be good for me or my baby! If there was something that the doctor could actually do to prevent a miscarriage, then of course, I would definitely do it, no questions asked. This is not the case!
I really want to enjoy my pregnancy. I want to spend every moment day dreaming about the healthy, beautiful, and smart baby I am going to have. I don't want to sit around fretting about things that may or may not come to pass. I am not trying to put my head in the sand and pretend that everything is always perfect, but I don't see what the benefit is of worrying before I actually have to.
I am eating right, exercising, and avoiding caffeine. I don't smoke or drink alcohol. I am going to the doctor, taking my vitamins, and saying my prayers. The rest is not up to me...
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